So I downloaded this new app called Timehop, and I must admit that I am a bit obsessed with it! Basically the app links to your social media accounts and it shows what you posted a year (or two years) ago on that very day.
So since Gideon turned 15 months old yesterday, I eagerly opened my Timehop app to see what I said a year ago when he turned 3 months old. Here’s what I posted-
I cringed when I read this, and honestly I was totally embarrassed. I remember vividly this feeling of frustration and hopelessness- and to make it worse, I felt like no one understood. As I shared this post with my husband yesterday he said, “Wow, what a difference a year makes.”
A year ago I felt so lost. I was beyond exhausted & depressed. We still had no answers as to what was wrong with our son. Even though I was trying to stay positive, deep down I was spiraling out of control. I felt as though that season of life would never end.
Maybe you can relate. Maybe you’re in a season right now that has lasted for years. While some seasons last longer than others, I do believe that every season was intended to end.
Ecclesiastes 3:4 says, “There is a time to cry and a time to laugh. There is a time to be sad and a time to dance with joy.” I remember reading that a year ago and asking God, “When do I get to laugh again??? Will I ever dance with joy again?!?!
One year later our season of joy and laughter has returned. Even with the knowledge of Gideon’s diagnosis, we smile because we know God is faithful. And today I know something in my heart that a year ago I only knew in my head- “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” With Christ, I can make it through the sleepless nights. With Christ, I can face the unknowns. With Christ, I can be a good mom…even in the most exhausting seasons of life.
I really like this Timehop app. Like a journal, it’s allowed me to look back and see how far God has brought us this past year with Gideon.
If you seem to be stuck in a season of life, I want to encourage you to keep pressing on. Seek God through prayer and stay in His Word. And never forget that He is faithful even when we are faithless.
What a difference a year makes.
Even Laynie’s joy has returned.