All of Me

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This photo of Gideon and his daddy reminded me of a song called All Of Me by Matt Hammitt. I highly recommend you take a second and listen to it.

But if you don’t have time, here are the lyrics-

Afraid to love, something that could break
Could I move on if you were torn away?
And I’m so close to what I can’t control
I can’t give you half my heart and pray He makes you whole

You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start

I won’t let sadness steal you from my arms
I won’t let pain keep you from my heart
I’ll trade the fear of all that I could lose
For every moment I’ll share with you

You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start

Heaven brought you to this moment, it’s too wonderful to speak
You’re worth all of me, you’re worth all of me
So let me recklessly love you even if I bleed
You’re worth all of me, you’re worth all of me

You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start

You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start
Is where I’ll start

I promise there’s a good reason why I’m going to ask you to take 2 minutes and 53 seconds to watch the story behind why Matt Hammitt wrote this song.

Click HERE to watch it.

Pretty powerful, huh? I love this story because I think it accurately reflects how we all feel when we know our hearts will inevitably be broken. If we keep the walls up, then maybe the pain won’t hurt so bad. But like Matt said, it’s hard to build a wall between you and one you love…especially a baby.

His story reminds me of a quote from a book I read by Nancy Guthrie called Holding Onto Hope. She spoke about how she had given a piece of her heart to Hope and when Hope died, she took it with her. When we lose a loved one, we are like an amputee; we have to learn how to function all over again- because a part of us is gone.

Every time I hear this song I cry. Not just because it was written for me and Gideon (seriously though…it could have been); but also because sometimes I imagine Jesus sings it to me-  You’re gonna have all of me. You’re gonna have all of me. Cause you’re worth every fallen tear. You’re worth facing any fear. You’re gonna know all my love…So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed. You’re worth all of me. You’re worth all of me.  

Have you ever thought about it that way? He did bleed for us!! For me…for you!! He showed us how to love because he did give all of Himself. He knew his heart would be broken, and yet, he still chose to love us anyways.

So that begs the question…

How can I do anything less for my Gideon?

 

My sweet boy, you will have all of me.

 

 

8 thoughts on “All of Me

  1. Sam you write the most beautiful posts! Very touching and most times I am in tears after reading them but its a good thing. I enjoy reading your posts and often can relate and if I can’t relate it gives me something to think about! You are an amazing person an amazing mother both Laney and Gideon are SO lucky to have YOU as their mom! Lots of love & big hugs! Xoxox

    1. Thanks Lori!! I’m glad to know they’re meaningful. 🙂 We love and miss you guys so much!! I’m itching to get back up there!! 🙂 Hugs for you and yours as well!!

  2. I’m not sure how you do it. Nearly everything you post leaves me in tears. I have a little boy also, just a few months older than Gideon and I just fall apart at the thought of what you are going through. My heart breaks for you. God Bless you for sharing your story. And even though I typically end up in a ball of tissues every time I read, I do look forward to your posts. I think of you and your precious family often. It is often a reminder to me to be so thankful for everything that God has blessed me with. God is blessing you for sure for sharing your story and encouraging others, when we should all be encouraging you! I pray for healing for your precious Gideon and strength and faith for you and your husband and daughter, and your extended family as well. God Bless !!

    1. Allyson, thank you so much! Your words are so encouraging to me. I don’t mean to make anyone cry, but it’s nice to know others are crying with me sometimes. Your prayers mean so much and I feel beyond blessed that there are so many people rooting for our little guy and for our family. I cannot thank you enough for taking the time to message and encourage me. Thanks for blessing me tonight!! God bless you and yours!!

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