Category Archives: Faith & Hope

Catch

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So last night Laynie decided that she and Gideon needed to go visit their cousins, Addison & Dawson. While we were there Gideon decided to do more big boy stuff!

I hope you will watch this VIDEO of my little man holding himself up.

Pretty awesome, huh?!

Go ahead and watch it again…I’ll wait.

Now granted, he did not get into that position by himself, but just the fact that he could hold his weight like that (and his head) is HUGE!

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I love these shining moments and as cheesy as it may sound, I love how at the end of this video his daddy’s hands are right there to guide him to a safe landing. Isn’t that how we all are with our babies? We are right there to catch them quick if they fall (unless they’re sitting on the bed…lol).

There’s a story that comes to mind about catching our kiddos and my husband will probably kill me for telling it…but I’m going to tell it anyways. So for those of you who may not know, my husband cheered in college…and I don’t mean from the stands. He was a cheerleader and many people know it takes a lot of talent to throw/hold those girls in the air. But because of that, my husband is always bragging; saying things like “Did you see those hands???” when he catches something quick.

That being said, he was completely shocked and shaken when the day finally came where he missed…big.

One fall afternoon Laynie (she was about 2 at the time) was playing on this high platform at the playground. Kevin had stepped on the first step of the latter so he was just high enough to be eye-level with her feet.  She squatted down to kiss her daddy and to everyone’s surprise, she jumped!!… over Kevin’s head, and landed flat on her back. Now let me just clarify, Kevin did a back bend off that latter trying to catch her, which was an impressive attempt…but unfortunately, he missed.

This was totally out of character for her! She knew not to jump until daddy said “ready” but they weren’t even playing “catch me.” Of course that would be the day we walked to the park (with no stroller by the way…Laynie’s big girl idea). So the entire mile home Kevin carried her. I think he was in shock as much as she was. The only words he said to me on the way home were, “Daddy never misses.”

But unfortunately, they do. Mommy’s miss too. And you know what? That’s okay.

There’s only one Father who never misses. He holds us in the palm of his hand. In the video of Gideon holding himself up, you can see daddy’s hands are ready to catch him. But what’s interesting is that our Father’s hands don’t have to be ready, because we’re already in them. Is that as comforting to you as it is to me? Think about it. We never have to ask the Lord to be ready to catch us, because He’s already holding us.

We’ve already been caught.

I love seeing Gideon hold himself up. These brief moments of success totally make my day, and this one could not have come at a better time. It’s a reminder to me, that God’s not done with my little man yet. And I have a feeling there will be several more instances where Gideon is going to need us to be ready to catch him…when he crawls…when he walks. I can’t wait to be there for those moments.

In the meantime we’ll keep celebrating every ounce of progress- catching him all along the way.

Thanks for celebrating with us.

All of Me

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This photo of Gideon and his daddy reminded me of a song called All Of Me by Matt Hammitt. I highly recommend you take a second and listen to it.

But if you don’t have time, here are the lyrics-

Afraid to love, something that could break
Could I move on if you were torn away?
And I’m so close to what I can’t control
I can’t give you half my heart and pray He makes you whole

You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start

I won’t let sadness steal you from my arms
I won’t let pain keep you from my heart
I’ll trade the fear of all that I could lose
For every moment I’ll share with you

You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start

Heaven brought you to this moment, it’s too wonderful to speak
You’re worth all of me, you’re worth all of me
So let me recklessly love you even if I bleed
You’re worth all of me, you’re worth all of me

You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start

You’re gonna have all of me
‘Cause you’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear

You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start
Is where I’ll start

I promise there’s a good reason why I’m going to ask you to take 2 minutes and 53 seconds to watch the story behind why Matt Hammitt wrote this song.

Click HERE to watch it.

Pretty powerful, huh? I love this story because I think it accurately reflects how we all feel when we know our hearts will inevitably be broken. If we keep the walls up, then maybe the pain won’t hurt so bad. But like Matt said, it’s hard to build a wall between you and one you love…especially a baby.

His story reminds me of a quote from a book I read by Nancy Guthrie called Holding Onto Hope. She spoke about how she had given a piece of her heart to Hope and when Hope died, she took it with her. When we lose a loved one, we are like an amputee; we have to learn how to function all over again- because a part of us is gone.

Every time I hear this song I cry. Not just because it was written for me and Gideon (seriously though…it could have been); but also because sometimes I imagine Jesus sings it to me-  You’re gonna have all of me. You’re gonna have all of me. Cause you’re worth every fallen tear. You’re worth facing any fear. You’re gonna know all my love…So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed. You’re worth all of me. You’re worth all of me.  

Have you ever thought about it that way? He did bleed for us!! For me…for you!! He showed us how to love because he did give all of Himself. He knew his heart would be broken, and yet, he still chose to love us anyways.

So that begs the question…

How can I do anything less for my Gideon?

 

My sweet boy, you will have all of me.

 

 

Unlovable

Loving people can be difficult. Just ask the sweet waitress at a local restaurant we visited this evening. She had about a 10-top and from the time we sat down until the time we left, these people were unbelievably cruel. We watched as they complained again and again, sent food back, asked for the manager, belittled the manager, and then a few from that table had the nerve to walk out on their ticket.. after they enjoyed free desserts…and did I mention they took 3 to-go boxes!?

My heart was broken for their sweet waitress, but more so for our society. Everyone in the restaurant watched as the scene unfolded as if it were a play. The people at this table were laughing as the manager went back and forth trying to comp items on their ticket, like it was a game.

I feel a great sense of distress when people are manipulative. Don’t get me wrong, had there been a genuine complaint, I understand calling a manager into the situation. But what this group of adults did was wrong.

And do you want to know what I was thinking?

Jesus wants me to love them???

Maybe it’s Gideon, maybe it’s the hormones, but all I could think about was that the Bible commands us to love time and time again. (John 13:34-35, Romans 12:10, Romans 13:8, 2 Corinthians 13:11, should I keep going??) But the verse that came to my mind tonight was Ephesians 4:2 which says “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”

And that’s what this sweet waitress did tonight. While she was on the floor she was professional, patient and gentle. She showed the love of Christ despite how much she was belittled.

I normally would not blog about something like this but I just want that sweet girl to know something-

How you love the unlovable says a lot about your character. Tonight many people watched and empathized with you as others treated you less than your worth. Jesus died for all of us. I don’t know their story or yours. But I watched as you reflected Christ’s love and I want to encourage you to keep doing just that- even if others don’t deserve it. You never know who is watching. You never know who is praying you through. You never know when your love and compassion will save another.

I hope we all can have that kind of compassion and love for the unlovable. Because if we are honest with ourselves, aren’t we all unlovable from time to time?

Love you sweet girl,
Sam